okay. before i start, i realised i got 23 views for the post-concert thoughts and 11 for the short post on jinjia's birthday. HAHAHAHHA. #OKCAN. sorry i find this highly amusing. like please lah LOL. come on people. -rolls eyes-

so yup. i've been meaning to blog for ages. just haven't quite found the time to do so or i just couldn't be bothered at some points in time actually. i realised how much i've been slacking as compared to so many people. not just. but more of. i realised the full extent of my disappointment in myself. have been doing some evaluation and reflection recently to just well, think about so many things. since my previous posts, so many things have happened... i guess recently i've just been overwhelmed by many things. i just need some time off and stuff perhaps. but still, i know that i really can't afford that much time. the amount of time i take to recover is just... atrocious. yknow, sometimes i really hate myself.

i guess i've just been feeling really really unworthy, tired, stupid, ugly, annoyed, frustrated, angry. there are just... that many things that i can deal with at one time i guess. i really hate this feeling of never being good enough for anyone, everyone and myself. so what if you get an A, you didn't get full marks. so what if you get a B, you didn't get and A. or at least, that's how the whole logic goes. perhaps this pressure is just something that i have put on myself. but i know that it's a must for me to get straight As AND a scholarship in order for my brother to have a safety net. i know that it is a must for me to do well in university so that i can get a job to support my brother and put him through uni. it's not quite the things that i would like to worry about right now while still studying but there's no denying the reality. the identity that you acknowledge in life brings about so many responsibilities that you have to fulfil. rights that come without responsibilities should be revoked. i don't think i'll know how to face my parents if i just can't do all those things. everyone just says that putting my brother through uni is not something for me to worry about, but for my parents. so you mean that between now and 5 years later when my brother needs to enter uni, if my parents lose their jobs or are unable to afford the uni fees for my brother, i'm just not going to care? obviously not right. i have to do my part as well. facing the reality that my parents just might lose their jobs soon, or at least for my dad, perhaps within the next 2 years even, is something that i have taken very long to do. sure, we might be more well-off now. but we are only a middle-income family. everything that we have now has been built up from scratch by my parents and they have obviously invested so much time and money into my brother and i in hopes that we will be able to at least get a degree. and the question is always, 'what if we don't?' well, i guess that just means that we'll be hard-pressed to fulfil our responsibilities as children. in this increasingly knowledge-driven economy, having a degree by itself is not enough, having straight As is not enough, having good character is not enough. nothing is ever enough by itself, but rather, you must have everything. the sad reality, i suppose. the reason why i'm actually posting this here is because i'm sick of people judging me for my actions. if you paused to think about it or ask me about it, well, here's the reason. the reason why i'm never satisfied with myself, why i'm constantly having to fake a smile, why i've changed so much. well, go on and continue judging me then.

sigh i guess i've ranted enough 'bout that. there have been so many things happening recently i guess. my cousin buying a house and getting married next year. having to deal with school work. coping with cca. tby concert. elections. crash concert. i guess the expectations of myself from both other people and myself have been weighing me down too much. it's like "oh you're an MEP student, confirm v zai one right". i'm honoured, but you do realise that behind this upholding of expectations is such a huge amount of hardwork right? the amount of readings that i get for mep is equal to that of bio + chem + math. that's how much it is. can you stop judging me for trying to do my work, for actually using the little time that i have in school to do work? "oh music, very easy to score right?" wrong. if it was that easy to score, then why hasn't our school got 100% As or distinctions ever since at least 8 years ago? or, why is it an A level subject? why do so few people take music as a subject for A levels? perhaps if you actually see the amount of work that we do, the amount of effort that we put in just for music alone for these 5 years until now, you would understand a little. can you imagine the total amount of time that you spend on your subjects now? take that, and multiply by two. that's how much we have to deal with on a daily basis. if only music was so easy. if only i didn't have to worry about the grade that i'm going to get for music. if only. but the truth is that it isn't. and you know, this amount of time has been increasing over the years ever since year 1. if you cannot imagine the amount of time that we put in for mep, well, let's just say that it's quite sad i guess. i remember mugging for mep in year 2. mugging before school, during recess and lunch, after school. all just for mep. at least 3 weeks before the exam. just to get that A+. that was in year 2. spending that much time on mep then, is less than the amount of time i spend to study bio now. so please, stop saying that music is such a simple subject. it isn't.

felt that i've drifted away from some people recently. i guess it's kinda sad, since i really treasure some of them so much. perhaps they just don't know it. i don't know anymore. it's just. so confusing. all relationships are confusing. life is confusing. sigh.

i would like to rant so much more. what a pity i just can't. perhaps i should just stop caring so much.

okay on a lighter note, it has been kinda boring since jinjia went into NS LOL. meh. no more daily ranting sessions with epic moments. ohwell. good also lah. it'll make me study more. i think LOL. anyways, it's only NS HAHA. there's still chinhui to do the jikopek face and the D: face and the yay action in school LOL. plus there's still weekends(: wonder how he's doing there HAHA. can't wait for all my stories yay LOL. 'storytelling time' is always so epic hahaha(:

oh shucks it's already so late. shall keep it short. anyways, first session of composition+improvisation workshop was pretty cool!(: and interhouse too!(: really proud of all the drakon warriors who played their best! and of course, all the other athletes as well(: can't wait for the rest of the games and sports carn!(: (even though interhouse reminded me of something sad, but meh.) really looking forward to tby concert despite the amount of work that needs to be done! 32 DAYS #DHSCO #TBY #motivation <3

okay shall end off here. hopefully i won't be coming back to rant any time soon. realised that it has already been a year... so much has happened... next year, it'll be our turn. and we'll show them.

// because forward is the only way to go;

你好!(:

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!(: hehe you're old already lah :P meh but nvm it fits your super naggy nature HAHA :P anyways, thankyouthankyouthankyou for everything(: including being a mean old person :P HAHA it's highly entertaining okay LOL. since it's your birthday i shall be nice to youuuuu :D anyways, yup. really thankyou for everything(: especially for listening to all my rants and just, well, taking them as they are(: oh and one more very important thing! putting up with my crazy randomness and total insanity at certain points of time (like almost every day HAHA) LOL. that is like. a very huge achievement so grats HAHA :P so yup, all the best for everything! ^^ really hope you don't have to consider the question that i posed to you just now! fingers crossed yeah! remember to do your inspirational paragraph okay HAHA and must send to me kay :P anyways, yup. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN!(: and really, hope that you'll have a fulfilling 2 years(: perhaps you'll fully understand what i mean after you come out haha(: keep in touch yeah(:

love from your most awesome junior :D

GONGYAN IS OFFICIALLY OVER (one day too late). i guess i'm slightly speechless as too what to say. there's so many things running through my head right now and i just have to sort them out. it's been swirling about in my head and affecting my ability to rationalise or even just THINK through some stuff (i.e. chem and mep :\ i couldn't even type the word "hasn't" properly when i was tweeting it .__. #fail) overall i guess this year's gongyan was a pretty new experience for all of us in the sense that there was some restructuring done to the concert in terms of having 2 concerts with various types of items for every group as well as having it in the PAC (as much as we don't like it and totally complained like there was no end hahaha).

being involved in so many banzou pieces has been a really really really tiring experience. having to maintain my concentration for hours week after week was torture lol. especially the week where it was monday to saturday... -facepalm- i'm not sure if i should be having this type of afterthoughts of the concert. well, looking back on the previous years, it just has been too tiring for me this year. the type of feelings that i'm having are perhaps worlds apart from the previous years. the overwhelming sense of everything just hasn't stopped yet and i haven't felt that insanely satisfying feeling yet. there is just something that's missing this year but i'm not quite sure what it is. it has been satisfying, yes, especially considering how tired it has made me despite it only being april. but it's just not to the extent of how it was previously.

so yup. on the bright side, the whole thing was pretty okay i guess haha. despite everything, really glad i pulled through and more importantly, it was really heartwarming to see the effort put in my the juniors and the improvement that they had. i'm really proud of them(: love y'all(: to all y4s, i sincerely hope that this has been a wonderful gongyan for y'all and i think that this is the best one that you'll ever experience. never again will you be able to experience such a thing like this. even it has not been this way for you, i just hope that you will be able to treasure this experience nonetheless and go in search of many more wonderful moments to come. the friends that you make in CO will not just be with you until your journey as a current member of DHSCO ends, but rather, some of them will come to be your lifelong friends whom you will still keep in touch with. the DHSCO experience is something that is unique to us (obviously haha) and it differs among individuals. i just hope that for those of you who have no plans to continue in SH, you will never forget the memories and the friends you have made. be it good or bad experiences, i believe that they have made you who you are and for that reason, you should embrace them regardless. for those of you who are going up to DHSSHCO, i would like to say that it may not be what you imagine it to be and you will not be able to fully understand until you experience it for yourself. even after considering this and making your decision to stay on, i would like to say that you should still try your best to make your DHSSHCO experience as fulfilling as possible, not only for yourself but also for everyone else in the SHCO family. it will be hard, especially since you might question your decision many times (which i can totally relate to) but the truth is that the answer to your question can actually only be found at the end of your 2 year journey in SH. to all y4s who will be joining us for SYF next year, i sincerely hope that you do this for the right reasons. sadly true, we do not need people who are not willing to put in the time and effort required. to everyone participating in SYF next year, i'm not going to say that we should uphold the DHSCO name and hence get gold with honours. perhaps it would be more of being able to prove to ourselves how good we are as an orchestra. not to any other people, but just ourselves. to be weighed down by others' expectations is giving yourself unnecessary stress. it is not about meeting those expectations, but rather, exceeding the expectations set by ourselves for ourselves. the award "gold with honours" is given to more than one school, but that is not the main purpose. the main purpose of SYF is to PERFORM, to make the audience ENJOY themselves and to enjoy your OWN performance. as we all undertake this journey together, here's wishing everyone all the best. to the seniors, thank you for accompanying us so far on our DHSCO journey. you will forever remain as THE most AWESOME seniors to us, EVER. no matter what, you guys will always be a part of this big DHSCO family and it is now time for you guys to focus even more on your studies than before. so all the best, and you will do us proud no matter what!

i guess there are still many sentiments in my head that are left unsaid, but that's all for now. more to follow soon i guess, with the upcoming performance on wed at shangri-la as well as TBY concert! it's been tiring and i'm desperate for a break now but well, i'll live. shall blog again soon hopefully. pretty grateful for a chance to redeem my solo though. i know i can do better than that. yup. i'll pull through till the next rest stop arrives.

hahaha omg i can't believe i'm blogging in macs now abcdefg >< THE RESULT OF BEING HORRIBLY BORED DOING HW >( one reason why i can't be a mugger lolololol. dying after doing all the bio essays (not done though) and math ohgosh what else can i say sigh.

these few days have been awesome(: met all my favourite people in mep on friday whoosh LOL. it was a really epic day heading to nie and realising we can't find any info there before heading over to esplanade and realising we havent done our food shopping HAHA. becks went for cell dinner so we headed over to sot's house for a while before my dad came to fetch me and quek(: mep bitching session is freaking awesome can :D

somehow i'm slightly optimistic about my fate right now. even though things are really gonna get super hard and all, i just feel that with these awesome friends by my side, we're gonna pull through together somehow(: even though we might get all crazy and stuff, we do have a serious side. some people just can't understand i guess. the amount of time that we have to commit to mep and music (they're like two different things) is pretty crazy. somehow i can't imagine myself juggling all those committments. what's gonna happen to me next year when there's syf and stuff? i don't know but i guess we'll all pull through together somehow(: LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER!!(: <3

meeting KOJIAYI later teehee!(: STUPID JIAYI DON'T WANNA MEET EARLIER. MAKE ME STONE IN MACS ALONE LIKE SOME IDIOT SIA HAHAHA. nvm i still love you(: WE MUST CATCH UP SOON KAY <3 going for main lecture with chua in like 2 weeks LOL. lucky i don't have ot go alone sia >< but yup. really grateful for my bff chua teehee(: i know becks is really grateful for him as a bro too(: we were just talking about stuff like that just now too LOL. but yeah. awesome times i guess(: glad we can still be this close now(: forever bothering jinjia when he's online lolololol (Y) epic conversations much! if you could read them... HAHAHAHA. nah but some parts are too private LOL. anyways, really grateful for such an awesome senior (even though he's the ultimate meanie!!) who has always been there when i needed him(: even though his bio got C he's still always helping me leh! awww LOLOL. okay hahaha. but yup. of course not only in terms of studies luh. in other ways, he has been supporting and pushing me on so yup. really grateful for that(:

SO YUP. i guess somehow i'll pull through witha ll the help from my friends and family. i'm really grateful for all the things that my dad has been doing for me recently which has been even more than what he has done over the many years! i love my dad <3 and i'm really grateful to my mum for always helping me in filing HAHAHA. something that i really can't stand even until now LOL. but yup. we're both really alike in some ways i guess. i just never really noticed it until now. yup.

'cause it's only when the skies get dark then can you see the stars. the darker it is, the brighter the stars. so i'll let these stars illuminate my path. no matter how rough the road gets, i will make it through alive and even stronger. i hope that i can do the same for the people who really matter to me and we'll eventually make it through together.

(: 'cause i'll look back on this when things get hard and remind myself WHY.

DEAR ALL,

DHSCO proudly presents our (revamped) annual concert: "Summer Rhapsodies; 华夏情'12"

It will be on 7th April (Sat), at 3/7pm, at the PAC! This year, we have an unusual chance to hold TWO shows! The 3pm concert showcases solos while the 7pm concert focuses on ensemble and full orchestra pieces! Tickets are sold at $10 ea! So bring your family, friends, relatives down to enjoy the night of music with us! Hope to see you there!(:

do drop me a text/tweet/message/whatever if you're interested!(: hahaha(:

t'was #foreveralone day yesterday HAHAHA. was actually planning to write a super long post but i kinda decided not to hahaha. i guess all i can say is that i'm really grateful for things that happened yesterday(: i love y'all so much! <3 i guess this year was especially memorable for so many reasons. not exactly the reasons that you would immediately think of when friendship/v day is concerned but okay haha. anyways, still really grateful for all my true friends(: yup. special mentions to my fellow MEPers, mel, jennifer and jiayi! <3 love y'all so much hehe <3

friendship day haul(;

other than that, i guess things have just been pretty crazy recently so yeah. i guess i just have to take things easier for now hahaha. so yupppp. "there's nowhere left to fall when you reach the bottom, it's now or never" (: shall press on! shall just end off this short post (like seriously super short and slightly superficial in a way) with 2 videos(:

Radio - The Corrs

It's late at night
And I'm feeling down
There're couples standing on the street
Sharing summer kisses and silly sounds

So I step inside
Pour a glass of wine
With a full glass and an empty heart
I search for something to occupy my mind

But you are in my head
Swimming forever in my head
Tangled in my dreams
Swimming forever

So listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know, oh, oh
So listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
Remember where we used to go...

Now it's morning light
And it's cold outside
Caught up in a distant dream
I turn and think that you are by my side

So I leave my bed
And I try to dress
Wandering why my mind plays tricks
And fools me into thinking you are there

But you're just in my head
Swimming forever in my head
Not lying in my bed
Just swimming forever

So listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know, oh, oh
So listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
Remember where we used to go...

I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know, oh, oh
I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
Remember where we used to go...

You are in my head
Swimming forever in my head
Tangled in my dreams
Swimming forever
(Swimming forever)
Swimming forever

So listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know, oh, oh
So listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
Remember where we used to go...

I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know, oh, oh
I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)

Singapore Chinese Orchestra & Jeremy Monteiro Trio - ASIANA by Jeremy Monteiro (the tabla is so cute! haha #justsaying. credits to benedict for the link hahaha)

have been having relatively interesting conversations with joash recently haha. after all we kinda finally had time to start talking bout loads of totally random stuff. plus, since when are our convos not interesting? HAHAHA. forever full of epicness, and not to forget, bs (Y) spent the last part talking bout something i was really glad to get off my chest i guess. i really do appreciate his opinions when i mention stuff like that i guess? after all, it never kills to have a second opinion on anything haha. it's really quite surprising about how we can both talk about our problems and opinions on various issues quite easily i guess (haven't gotten over this after so long HAHAHA). after all, it's pretty rare i guess haha. looking back, perhaps i could say that this part of my life has changed (reference to previous post on life-changing experiences). i'm really grateful for such an awesome friend (although he can really be such an ass at times), especially since we actually do keep in touch occassionally after mep camp slightly more than 1 and a half years ago (as rightly pointed out by jeremy haha). it was pretty cool meeting up w joash, euan, se ern and judah after about 1 year and a half last dec to see that, well, people actually still do care about keeping in touch and stuff i guess. no offence meant to anyone in particular of course. after all, different people have different reasons and commitments i guess. but then again, we all know how things are like with camps. especially inter-school ones that last for what, 2 days? hahaha. but those were good times that we had!(:

realised that this is a really superficial post (well, relatively) but i guess life has been going back to what it was right now HAHA. not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing now, but yeah. i kinda like it i guess LOL. going back to sy next week (-fingers croseed-) and the homework's slowly starting to pile up and well, just get crazy i guess haha. despite the fact that these 2 years will probably be some of the busiest ones of my life (there's still university of course), i guess these will be the days that i miss most. i'm still searching for a job that i really love. being more aware of myself has made me more picky and i'm not exactly satisfied with what i have in mind right now. it may seem rather weird, but i just guess that the focus of the job is just not what i want. well, i'll see how it goes. i'm grateful for a subject combination that i am rather satisfied with and in times to come, i don't think i will regret it. after all, it has shaped me into becoming who i am today. if it wasn't for the interest in year 1 in molecular genetics (for some weird reason), the fun i found in doing chem during y3 and y4 (for yet other weird reasons), my interest in math during primary school and appreciating it later in y3 and y4 (despite my lack of aptitude and attitude), and my totally random decision of taking mep in y1, i wouldn't be here today. of course, it definitely isn't the time to reflect on my choices over the course of time but i guess it was just another random realisation of today after the mention of subject combinations hahaha.

ohwell. it's time to sleep (my eyes are closing already) haha. totally slacked my day away. but then again, nothing due tmw so it doesn't really matter LOL :P on a side note, everyone should really take care!! a whole load of people getting sick nowadays): my bro, my mum, and i just recovered from a fever, and of course so many other people were/are sick): so yup. take care people!!

super nervous for so many things haha. not sure what to expect anymore but yup. just hoping for the best for everything i guess. although i don't really think that i'll be able to get the best in all cases. but still nevertheless hoping so so soooooooo much. is it really wrong to want something that i've put in so much effort for? or something that i really want but i know will never turn out the way i want?

on yet another side note, do check out this blog set up by some of my fellow 4i peeps: http://lizmoandfriends.wordpress.com (: not quite up and stuff yet but yup. do check it out!(:

'cause there's a side to you that i never knew never knew
all the things you said, they were never true never true
all the games you played you would always win always win

hahaha for some reason, the a7x songs that my bro has been blasting recently (or maybe not so recently) have stayed in my head. and yknow, just a random thought. i really want my books back HAHAHA. but then again, i would be depriving a "fellow book lover" of them. so whatever. gonna wait until idk when tsk. should've thought of that before i said we should stop talking eh. i really really love all my books. and especially those 2! like omg part of my childhood memories <3 i still remember how me and my bro were forever blur HAHA. like we bought the second books of some series and then figured out what happened in the first book just by reading the second omg. horribly weird and epic haha!

anyways, i'm blogging here cause i'm really BORED .__. i know i know, i should still be studying and doing work. but i can't help it! >< -sigh- 3 days feels sooooooooo long! i can't believe it's only been 3 days damn. people are saying that the days have passed so fast but i feel like it's really slow right now haha. okay perhaps i should be grateful for it and all, but yeah. it just feels weird i guess? i feel like i've changed so much and that part of my life is missing. i miss being a part of JHCO with all my awesome juniors :\ cca orientation was super awesome luh. i guess i didn't appreciate what i had enough and i'm missing so many things now.

i'm really drifting off out to somewhere i don't know. i feel really lost out here. questioned my decisions today. but well, it's not like i didn't know things would be this way. it's just that i didn't know that i would feel this way. i really miss JH life :\ but of course, there's nothing left but to accept how things are now and move on. of course it brings to mind yet another topic, one best left untouched forever. but of course i know that ideal situations never exist. after all, we're only human.

things that happened yesterday brought to mind something we witnessed last year. it was scary. for a moment i felt like i was back there and i was just powerless to do anything. but then again, that's life for you. just yesterday i was having a talk with an old friend. "absence makes the heart grow fonder", and well, it really does. when you miss what you had, you realise how stupid you were for not realising how important it is to you before. it's not just about liking someone and liking that person even more because you can't be with that person. that is comparatively superficial.

to have an experience that completely changes your life so much in many unexpected ways. i would think that it's pretty rare. so when that old friend of mine admitted that i was part of one that changed his, i guess it was immensely gratifying. after all somehow we talk about so many things haha. despite how different we are, i guess i really appreciate our friendship for what it is. when talking about that particular experience, i reflected upon my life and asked myself, did i ever have such an experience? maybe yes, on a much smaller scale. but somehow it doesn't seem so. sure, the events in my life have shaped me, but not drastically changed me. despite what i said about being a changed person after coming to SH, i would say that i probably realised how stupid i was (and probably still am) and i tried to change but ended up losing sight of myself instead. it's hard to explain i guess haha.

recently after going through many incidents where i questioned my perceptions and choices made, i'm really grateful for the people who have listened to my thoughts and given me advice. i guess such experiences are priceless so yup. really grateful to all my friends(: especially to mel, faith and sot regarding the recent issue haha. seems like my life is pretty eventful eh haha. but i'm grateful for that too. after all, who gets so many chances to learn from all the different experiences before heading out to the working world? we have all lived life with rose-tinted lenses, and will probably continue to no matter what happens in life. to be constantly living in denial is not something that is new to us. occasionally, we might take those glasses off and realise new things, but how long will we live with these revelations and how will we treat them? sooner rather than later, we tend to put them on again. they might differ slightly, but are nevertheless still present when we view the world.

i'm also really grateful for the friends that i have made through orientation haha. after all, what's a new year without new friends made? i hope this year will really be awesome somehow haha. it's off to a rocky start, but i believe that somehow things will be able to change for the better(: despite all the shit that happened, i really feel blessed and fortunate. looking on the bright side of things i guess haha. and i just remembered something someone said: "it's Thanksgiving everyday". so i guess i can appreciate that so much better. you will never stop being thankful for what you have and being grateful to the people around you. it doesn't have to be some major event, but rather the small things in life. i've always believed that the small things in life can make or break you. after all, in many cases that we see around us, it is usually the small things - the details in life that makes things so perfect or imperfect and that makes us into who we are.

haha after all these random rants, i guess i'll just take things as they come. hope for the best but always expect the worst. life and its unpredictabilities can have unpredictable consequences on us after all.

and damn. i really want my books back hahahaha

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again

super busy week! well, kinda. really tiring even before school starts): but aiya. my fault for being so kaypo right HAHAHA. but still, I LOVE DHSCO <3 jixun from tues till today. ended up staying back everyday till about 7+ lol. so it's like. 12h in school everyday. so fun .__. anyways, today was a success (well, pretty much) and yup. i'm really proud of all of them haha(:

feels weird wearing SH uniform tsk. but the best was today lah. went (i.e. chionged) for flag raising w the rest of the members who were there and attracted so many weird stares from the rest of the school HAHAHA. or at least the y4s :P after all, my bro said he didn't see (thank goodness) HAHA. but yknow, you never know haha.

not sure how these 2 years will be but yeah. hoping for the best!! so yup. -sigh- time to face reality :\

have been thinking about the past so often recently. i don't know why i'm doing that lol. things will never be the same again. but yknow, who knows what the future holds? i'll probably grab every chance i can to realise my dreams but sometimes, things just dont turn out the way you want them to. i realised i really have no backup plan and i really haven't considered what i will do if i don't manage to get into the course of my choice. perhaps it's no use worrying so much now, but reality has been pushing me to realise that things have been quite bad recently and so i have to do this by myself. i just hope that it doesn't happen this year. survive a year at a time, a month, a day, an hour, a minute, a second.

so perhaps this could be an official goodbye to 2011 and hello to 2012 (4 days too late) and well, everything we had i guess. yup. don't think i'll be blogging anymore until idk when hahaha (why does this sound so familiar :P). concert w faith tmw!(: last day of relaxation haha. piano on saturday and sy on sunday -groans- needa dig out my scores from wherever i chucked them the last time LOL. so yup. hope things get settled soon i guess? hoping this year will be alright somehow!

tsk i think there's really something wrong with me alr .__. ohwell. shall end this off with a song(: THE SONG that has been playing in my head for the whole day AGAIN hahaha

那些年 - 胡夏

又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终於来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片
无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后 故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后 故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

random title for today. that song has been replaying recently for some reason idk why either lol.

i guess this hols have been really fruitful somehow, despite all the random going out and just nua-ing at home lol. being able to actually derive a sense of satisfaction from going back to help out in co prac has actually been rather surprising, really. i guess... many things have changed this hols somehow. i guess this is weird. now that i'm finally blogging the words just won't flow but i've been wanting to blog for ages since idk when LOL.

anyways, time to go hahaha. fenzu in the morning + movie tmw! ^^